Wednesday, October 27, 2010

阿嚒,一路好走

一眨眼,阿嚒过世已经一个星期了。现在想想还是会觉得不可思议。偶尔还是会想说,这一切都是真的吗?还是我在做梦?可能我不曾经历过类似的事情,所以觉得有点不可思议。
还记得阿嚒过世的前一晚,我还在家。二伯还叫了’po tan’来家里为阿嚒念经祷告。隔天下午,二姐就打电话来告诉我说阿嚒去世了。当时的我还在上课,听到这样的消息感觉有点而假。我并没有太大的反应,只是转过身去跟芝芝将说我阿嚒去世了。讲完之后,我在回头想想二姐说了什么。这是的我,才真正领悟到‘阿嚒去世了’这句话。。。眼泪有点儿落框而出。我想专心的听别人present,但我耳朵在听,心里却想着前一晚的事情。
跟着芝芝的车回家,路途上我跟她说这前一天晚上的事情。说着说着,我不禁哭了。就这样,一路说着阿嚒的事情,直到回到了家。原本我还在想,回到家看到阿嚒,我会有什么样的反应,但我并没有看到她。因为阿嚒被带去二伯家了。
所有人匆匆忙忙在准备着,要去二伯家帮忙了。所以我也赶快把自己准备好,然后到二伯家去。
一到二伯家,还没踏进家门口,我就看到一个棺木摆放在大厅了。这是我出生以来,第一次看见自己亲戚的棺木。所有人都忙得不可开交,就连我妈妈也在那走来走去的,和我二伯母在忙着处理所有的事情。
走进家里,我没有第一时间去棺木旁看阿嚒。等到妈妈稍微闲了下来,她才叫我们去看阿嚒。妈妈说,阿嚒的脸很慈祥。我不懂怎么样算慈祥,但我知道,阿嚒的样子很安宁。。。看着阿嚒身穿着寿衣,躺在很陌生,冰冷冷的棺木里,我脑海里浮现很多的问号。阿嚒真的没有知觉了吗?为什么现在她会躺在里面?她真的不会动了吗?真的就这样走了?
阿嚒的离开,我们守了两天夜。为阿嚒烧金纸,为阿嚒祈祷,希望她能一路顺顺利利的。为了阿嚒的身后事,大家都忙得团团转。当中还为了安葬的事情搞得大家不愉快。甚至发生争执。但这一切都已经过去了。阿嚒终于安息了,我们大家也算松了一口气。尤其是我妈妈。妈妈真的付出了很多。所有事情,她都和我二伯母亲力亲为。
从阿嚒搬到我们家来,都是我妈在照顾阿嚒。从阿嚒还可以走动到躺在床上,都是我妈妈在看着她。帮阿嚒抹身体的辛苦与心疼,妈妈都尽力了不少。做子女的我看了多不捨。妈妈真的很伟大。为躺在病床上,背后大部分是伤口的阿嚒,无怨无悔,无微不至的抹身体,试问这世上,还有几个媳妇会愿意这么去做?!大多都会把她们送到医院或老人院去,然护士来照顾吧!
每次看着妈妈这么辛苦工作回来,还要为阿嚒洗身体洗脸,真的很累。还有,看着妈妈为阿嚒洗身体时,阿嚒痛苦的表情,自己都会觉得很难过,替她感觉痛!也许,阿嚒的离去,对她,或对妈妈来说,也是一种解脱吧!
虽然过了一个星期,但我们还是会觉得不习惯,感觉家里少了一个人。每次经过阿嚒的房间,都会不禁往里面望一望。但这次,我们再也望不到阿嚒了。。。只希望阿嚒可以早日安息,在另一个世界过得好好的。

Monday, July 5, 2010

A Happy Trip

Hoh...My trip with my friends (Yin Han and Shu Teng) has finally end. In this few days, I feel very happy. I went to Seremban Yin Han's house and Kapar Shu Teng's house. We went to many places and many things we done together. We went to pasar malam together, we sing K together, watched movie together, eat Dim Sum together, went to Fullhouse together, and many many more...I enjoy my days with them. Both of them are so funny... Love to read love novel till went to buy novel at pasar malam. If there is any free time for them, they can just take out their novel, find a place and start reading it. They are really my cute friends...

This is a four days three nights trip. Hahahaha...a simple trip after we completed our job at Genting. Perhaps, it wil be a good memories before I graduate.

Along my trip, I have spend much. Till myself don't realize that my accounts left not much money. I am really 'dry' now. Shopping at Sunway by just window shopping. Can see but can't buy! What a poor thing...I intend to buy a book cost RM 29.80 at Popular but I left only Rm 29.00 in my wallet. Went to withdraw from my CIMB but RM 9.04 left for the balance. This is the first time I feel like really 'luo po'. Haha...maybe I deserve this for being too spendy after receiving my salary.

Anyway, it is worth because friendship can't be compare with money. Its value is far more than we can imagine!!! Thanks to my dearest friends, Yin Han and Shu Teng... thanks for the sweet memories that you all bring to me. I appreciate it and I hope that both of you enjoy it too...!!!

Thursday, June 24, 2010

接下来

再过七天,我就要和我的同事们还有云顶说bye bye了。现在的我百感交集。但我很清楚的知道,我的感伤是多过于兴奋的。说起来,就快可以回家和家人在一起应该是件值得高兴的事,但我感觉平平而已。可能我本性就不粘家吧。。。所以,就算离乡背井也不会太过想家,只是偶尔地思念起家人来而已。就要和同事们离别了,我的心情不由自主地变沉重了。虽然大家的感情说不上非常非常的好,但毕竟都相处了一个多月的时间,那份情感是存在的。所以,自然而然的,舍不得的心情就会浮现。

这五个星期的时间,我都过得很好。虽然有时候,工作上的压力及同事间纠纷让我的心灵深受影响,但。。。那是毕经之路!生活,不会永远都风平浪静,如心所愿。我,体会到了这一点。接下来,我希望我能够好好的把握这一个礼拜的时间,尽情的玩乐,尽心的工作,用心的度过接下来的每一天!

歌名:接下来 歌手:孙燕姿

接下来 有好有坏 我只要记得起点
接下来 我去迎接 不后退
接下来 可好可坏 有你们陪在每一天
All I wanna do I do it for you