Wednesday, October 27, 2010

阿嚒,一路好走

一眨眼,阿嚒过世已经一个星期了。现在想想还是会觉得不可思议。偶尔还是会想说,这一切都是真的吗?还是我在做梦?可能我不曾经历过类似的事情,所以觉得有点不可思议。
还记得阿嚒过世的前一晚,我还在家。二伯还叫了’po tan’来家里为阿嚒念经祷告。隔天下午,二姐就打电话来告诉我说阿嚒去世了。当时的我还在上课,听到这样的消息感觉有点而假。我并没有太大的反应,只是转过身去跟芝芝将说我阿嚒去世了。讲完之后,我在回头想想二姐说了什么。这是的我,才真正领悟到‘阿嚒去世了’这句话。。。眼泪有点儿落框而出。我想专心的听别人present,但我耳朵在听,心里却想着前一晚的事情。
跟着芝芝的车回家,路途上我跟她说这前一天晚上的事情。说着说着,我不禁哭了。就这样,一路说着阿嚒的事情,直到回到了家。原本我还在想,回到家看到阿嚒,我会有什么样的反应,但我并没有看到她。因为阿嚒被带去二伯家了。
所有人匆匆忙忙在准备着,要去二伯家帮忙了。所以我也赶快把自己准备好,然后到二伯家去。
一到二伯家,还没踏进家门口,我就看到一个棺木摆放在大厅了。这是我出生以来,第一次看见自己亲戚的棺木。所有人都忙得不可开交,就连我妈妈也在那走来走去的,和我二伯母在忙着处理所有的事情。
走进家里,我没有第一时间去棺木旁看阿嚒。等到妈妈稍微闲了下来,她才叫我们去看阿嚒。妈妈说,阿嚒的脸很慈祥。我不懂怎么样算慈祥,但我知道,阿嚒的样子很安宁。。。看着阿嚒身穿着寿衣,躺在很陌生,冰冷冷的棺木里,我脑海里浮现很多的问号。阿嚒真的没有知觉了吗?为什么现在她会躺在里面?她真的不会动了吗?真的就这样走了?
阿嚒的离开,我们守了两天夜。为阿嚒烧金纸,为阿嚒祈祷,希望她能一路顺顺利利的。为了阿嚒的身后事,大家都忙得团团转。当中还为了安葬的事情搞得大家不愉快。甚至发生争执。但这一切都已经过去了。阿嚒终于安息了,我们大家也算松了一口气。尤其是我妈妈。妈妈真的付出了很多。所有事情,她都和我二伯母亲力亲为。
从阿嚒搬到我们家来,都是我妈在照顾阿嚒。从阿嚒还可以走动到躺在床上,都是我妈妈在看着她。帮阿嚒抹身体的辛苦与心疼,妈妈都尽力了不少。做子女的我看了多不捨。妈妈真的很伟大。为躺在病床上,背后大部分是伤口的阿嚒,无怨无悔,无微不至的抹身体,试问这世上,还有几个媳妇会愿意这么去做?!大多都会把她们送到医院或老人院去,然护士来照顾吧!
每次看着妈妈这么辛苦工作回来,还要为阿嚒洗身体洗脸,真的很累。还有,看着妈妈为阿嚒洗身体时,阿嚒痛苦的表情,自己都会觉得很难过,替她感觉痛!也许,阿嚒的离去,对她,或对妈妈来说,也是一种解脱吧!
虽然过了一个星期,但我们还是会觉得不习惯,感觉家里少了一个人。每次经过阿嚒的房间,都会不禁往里面望一望。但这次,我们再也望不到阿嚒了。。。只希望阿嚒可以早日安息,在另一个世界过得好好的。

Monday, July 5, 2010

A Happy Trip

Hoh...My trip with my friends (Yin Han and Shu Teng) has finally end. In this few days, I feel very happy. I went to Seremban Yin Han's house and Kapar Shu Teng's house. We went to many places and many things we done together. We went to pasar malam together, we sing K together, watched movie together, eat Dim Sum together, went to Fullhouse together, and many many more...I enjoy my days with them. Both of them are so funny... Love to read love novel till went to buy novel at pasar malam. If there is any free time for them, they can just take out their novel, find a place and start reading it. They are really my cute friends...

This is a four days three nights trip. Hahahaha...a simple trip after we completed our job at Genting. Perhaps, it wil be a good memories before I graduate.

Along my trip, I have spend much. Till myself don't realize that my accounts left not much money. I am really 'dry' now. Shopping at Sunway by just window shopping. Can see but can't buy! What a poor thing...I intend to buy a book cost RM 29.80 at Popular but I left only Rm 29.00 in my wallet. Went to withdraw from my CIMB but RM 9.04 left for the balance. This is the first time I feel like really 'luo po'. Haha...maybe I deserve this for being too spendy after receiving my salary.

Anyway, it is worth because friendship can't be compare with money. Its value is far more than we can imagine!!! Thanks to my dearest friends, Yin Han and Shu Teng... thanks for the sweet memories that you all bring to me. I appreciate it and I hope that both of you enjoy it too...!!!

Thursday, June 24, 2010

接下来

再过七天,我就要和我的同事们还有云顶说bye bye了。现在的我百感交集。但我很清楚的知道,我的感伤是多过于兴奋的。说起来,就快可以回家和家人在一起应该是件值得高兴的事,但我感觉平平而已。可能我本性就不粘家吧。。。所以,就算离乡背井也不会太过想家,只是偶尔地思念起家人来而已。就要和同事们离别了,我的心情不由自主地变沉重了。虽然大家的感情说不上非常非常的好,但毕竟都相处了一个多月的时间,那份情感是存在的。所以,自然而然的,舍不得的心情就会浮现。

这五个星期的时间,我都过得很好。虽然有时候,工作上的压力及同事间纠纷让我的心灵深受影响,但。。。那是毕经之路!生活,不会永远都风平浪静,如心所愿。我,体会到了这一点。接下来,我希望我能够好好的把握这一个礼拜的时间,尽情的玩乐,尽心的工作,用心的度过接下来的每一天!

歌名:接下来 歌手:孙燕姿

接下来 有好有坏 我只要记得起点
接下来 我去迎接 不后退
接下来 可好可坏 有你们陪在每一天
All I wanna do I do it for you

Thursday, June 3, 2010

左右为难

今天,原本还带着开开心心的心情去上班的。因为开始觉得与同事间的关系拉近了不少,所以今天的我是带着期待与愉快的心情出门的。但。。。 原来那只是我短暂的快乐。才刚进班不久就有个同事跑过来跟我说:“小心阿yan啊,她会抢你的customers!”我一听之下不知怎么回应她,只是对她笑了笑。我当时在想,为什么她会这么说阿yan,她们不是很好的吗?为什么朋友间还会这样说坏话呢?很多很多的问题出现在我脑海里。我开始心不在焉,而且我也开始害怕了起来。我害怕我会抢了别人的顾客,别人会因而对我闲言闲语的。我不喜欢那样,我真的不喜欢那样。。。

之前,我不知道staff有个人的commission抽。他们也只是告诉我commission是团体的,并没有人说个人表现也有统计的。我之前还单纯的说serve多点customers,不管是谁的,只要大家有hit到target那就ok了,圆满结局。事实并不是像我这样想的。同事与同事之间原来暗藏着竞争。个人表现这回事早就在一个星期前我就听说了,只是我没那么的在意它,一切都顺其自然。因为我觉得,为了争customers而伤了朋友或同事间的感情太不值得了,我不想因为这
样而跟同事们翻脸,然后每天都活在怨恨当中。

刚才,就出了点状况。因为我在serve customer,另外一个customer又叫我去拿鞋。原本我想就自己来应付的,但我看到阿yan没客人,想说就让她来serve吧!哪知,我发现当她掉头要去拿鞋时的表情很不爽,好像百般的不乐意。我想来想去,还是不明白为什么她会有如此的大转变。接着,我还感觉到她对我的态度也稍微有点不同了。我不知道是不是我太敏感了,但就是感觉怪怪的。。。

这件事有点影响我的情绪,直到6.00pm,我和尹含还有二姐去吃晚餐后才开始有点好转。我想说事情其实没有那么严重,只要我换个角度想,心情自然就会开朗起来的。但是。。。影响我情绪波动的事又再度发生了。我才刚打卡进班,supervisor阿kuan就对我说:“你今天的sales很少哦,才两百多而已。”天啊! 好不容易才让自己的心情好转,现在你这么简单的一句话就轻而易举的把我拉回到了低沉。我真的很生气!是谁的臭主意,要员工个人sales统计!造成所有的员工都你争我抢,尔虞我诈!为什么就不能简简单单,开开心心的工作呢?为什么一定要争?为什么一定要比?我不喜欢与世相争,更不喜欢同事间有任何的笑里藏刀!!!但我能怎么样,我真的很害怕!我害怕和别人抢,但是。。。又不能完全退让。我到底该怎么办?!现在的我,一看到customers就会变得有点退缩,犹豫着要不要上前。太糟糕了!我真的很左右为难啊!

我明白,若公司没有这样的制度,可能就会有人因而变得吊儿郎当,拿不出那份勤奋的态度在于他们的工作上。但。。。难道就没有更好的办法了吗?!非要员工变得那么现实吗?我今天真的很沉重。渐渐的,我好像可以理解到人们工作上的压力了。不只来自于工作上的,同事间种种的问题都会给我们带来许多的压力。

朋友经常对我说:“在职场上是找不到真心朋友的,所以不要太容易相信别人。同事永远不可能会是你的好朋友。”我明白了这句话的含义,但我真的不希望那是真的。。。

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

My 2nd Day of Work

Today is second day of work. I work full shift which is from 10.00 a.m. to 10.00 p.m. We have to wake up earlier because we have to reach our shop at 9.30 a.m. to do all those housekeeping jobs. So, I wake up at 8.00 a.m. as soon as I heard my alarm’s sound without any intention to continue sleep like I usually do. I behave abnormally perhaps I haven’t adapted to the new place where I use to be now.

Today, it is actually a good day for me. Everything runs smooth until around 4.30 p.m. Two female customers, from Arab Saudi I guess, came to our shop and they wanted to buy many pairs of shoes. These customers came to us yesterday and they too bought a lot of shoes from us. The different is that the quantity that they purchased yesterday was fewer than today. Therefore, we need not to make delivery for them. But today, they purchase 126 pairs of shoes and they require us to deliver it to them at Highland Hotel.

I had planned to go for an online nearby Starbucks after I finish working. But my plan burns because of this case. Four of us including our supervisor have to make delivery to Highland Hotel. Oh my god!!! How am I going to make it? I brought my laptop beg out with me this morning and I have another handbag to carry. A total of 17 bags need to be sent to the customers with only four crews. Each has to carry 4 bags full of shoes from First World to Highland, together with my laptop bag and handbag, it must be crazy!!! Furthermore, it is not a short distance man… It’s a quite a long distance! You must be kidding me…

After we settle off the entire closing job, we departed to Highland Hotel with all the 17 bags. I carried my bags and 4 bags of shoes from our shop to Highland Hotel. This ‘journey’ really makes me exhausted. I have to stop and take my rest along the way and my colleagues were have to wait for me. Finally, we reached Highland Hotel and my supervisor tried to ask the reception counter. Unfortunately, the reception counter said they are not at Highland Hotels but Genting Hotel. What the xxxx! We have come a long way to Highland and now we have to go back to Genting Hotel! What stupid information did the customers gave until fool us like this! My shoulders were in a pain and I can’t afford that anymore…

At last, we were able to deliver all the shoes to the customers at Genting Hotel. Thanks God… I was damn tired and totally exhausted. I cancel my plan to go to online at Starbucks and straight away go back to hostel.

Saturday, May 15, 2010

好心真的有好报!!!

刚才,我开车出去和朋友们喝茶。大家都聊得非常起劲,滔滔不绝。因为二姐和友人也和我们在同一个地方喝茶,她们要先回去,所以就来向我拿车钥匙载朋友回家。

不久,我电话响了起来~是二姐。她说车坏了,不能启动。Oh my God..!!!为什么我们的车一直坏呢!前几天爸爸才拿去修理,而且还是因为坏在半路叫人来修理的那一种。原本以为让车子休息一会儿就没事,但没想到它真的完全没反应了。打给爸爸问他怎么办,他说店都关了,唯有把车停在那里,等明天才叫人去修理咯。在没有办法之下,我们也只好这样咯!

我叫二姐和我们一起喝茶,等tracy要回了才跟她一起回去。接着,我们就继续滔滔不绝的讲个不停。其间,我还被stupid黑猫下了我两次!真的有够倒霉的。。。

我们坐到人们要关店了才离开。离开之前,我们想把车子推到一旁去,以便不会挡到别人的路。就这样,二姐开车,其余的‘五只’(我,tracy,yong,pifang and kailing)就负责推车。推好了车后,大伙儿便走到tracy的车去打算回家了。

出乎我们的预料当中,有一位好心的aunty走向我们,她还主动说要帮我们启动车子。Uncle和aunty把他们的Pajero(BJW 9911)驾过来,然后拿出了夹子夹我们车的engine。我根据uncle的指示把引擎启动。果然,车子‘死以回生’了。。。跟热心的aunty uncle道谢后,我们便赶快回家去了。

今天,如果你问我好心会有好报吗?我会回答:‘会!好心真的会有好报的!如果有哪一天,你觉得你做了好事,但却没有好的结果,别急着抱怨。因为回报不是不来,只是时机未到。’为什么我会有这样的想法呢?因为。。。在这之前,我们也在抱怨说自己好心帮了别人推车后,结果过了几天我们就一直诸事不顺利。先是上云顶的巴士故障,接着就车子坏在路上。现在竟倒霉到连喝茶车都会坏在外面。但。。。我们万万没想到,我们竟然会遇见贵人,晚上十一点多帮我们把车子启动,好让我们可以把车子驾回家去。

所以啊,我觉得,我们若是有能力,就得行行好,帮助有需要的人。等哪天我们遇到困难时,一样会有好心人士主动伸出援手的。

Ps:好心有好报,不是不报,只是时机未到。。。记得哦!!!

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Mission Accomplished

I have an important mission to complete today... Woke up at 6.05a.m. and getting myself prepared. 'Today will be a good day!'. I said to myself when I was brushing my teeth. After me and my sister has done, my dad sent us to the bus stand at 6.45a.m. We have waited for about 45 minutes for the KL bus and finally... there came a bus to KL.

Along our journey to KL, it was quite smooth. But... there was one thing harassing us, that was... WE DIN'T TAKE OUR BREAKFAST! Both of us felt very hungry half of the way, hoping that we can reached KL soon then we can get something to fill our little poor tummy.

After finished our breakfast, we reached Titiwangsa around 10.00a.m. Our tickets to Genting were at 10.20a.m. Therefore, we took a rest to cool down ourself after a long and tired journey. Meanwhile, I saw a very old lady with a very thin and weak body passing by. Like us, she was going to Genting and I saw her buying herself a ticket. What I was thinking about at that moment was that " why was she going to Genting all herself? Wasn't there anyone of her family can accompany her?" I was pity on her...

Everybody was trying to squeeze infront of the bus door although the door was shut. After a few minutes, the bus driver opened the door and everyone was squeeing in pile. After everybody get seated, our bus departed. It was 10.35a.m. and we were heading to Genting...Hooray!!!

We thought that everything will be alright as we have went into the bus. But, a small quarrell occured between the aunties sitting behind us and an uncle sitting beside me. All the aunties were too noisy. They spoke to loud till distrubing the uncle from getting into nap.

Another thing that we never thought of will happen was that our bus get into a breakdown. It took us about 15 minutes for another bus to come and fetch us. And there came another quarrel among aunties. They were argueing simply just because of the seat number. It was actualy not a big deal but yet they can make it so serious. Ish ish ish... How come adults were also bahaved like children? I have totally no idea.

We reached First world at 12.00p.m. My mission today is to get myself a job at Genting. Therefore, without wasting any time, me and my sister started to do so. We shopped around and asked around. There were some shops require part timer and there were some don't. All asked me to filled in a form and come again at 2p.m. There were two shops seem to have greater chances of getting hired and therefore, I waited.

Finally, a shop with shoes hired me. Its supervisor is friendly than the other. That's why I choosen it rather than the other one. After getting myself clear with all the information that I should know, we get back.

I am so happy today cause I can finally get myself a job. I will start working by next week and I can't wait for that time to reach. My feeling is just a kind of confusing. I feel scare although I am excited. Hmm... Whatever so... just let it be...

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

祝人为快乐之本

今天下午,因为二姐要去洁莹剪头发,所以我和妹妹陪同二姐三个人一起出去了。因为没有parking的缘故,我们就去弯了个圈把车子停在对面马路。车子停好后,我们看见对面马路阻塞了。一看之下,原来是有一辆van车坏了,停在路中间而导致的阻塞。不久,我们看见车主下车试图把van车推到一旁去。车子里都是女人和小孩子。看着他一个人把车推到一旁,我顿时有种同情的感觉。心想。。。妈妈每天也在那为我们的老爷车提心吊胆,深怕有哪一天我们的车也会坏在马路中间。而我,总觉得妈妈多余。如果车子真的坏在马路旁,大不了叫拖车的把它拖到一旁去,有什么好怕的!但看过了这一幕后,我才真正了解到妈妈的顾虑。我也明白了为什么当天,妈妈不给我一个人去飞机场接二姐。若真的有一天,车子坏在马路中间阻碍了交通,而那时只有我一个人,我想,我会急得不知所措,放声大哭吧!哈哈哈。。。

站在对面马路看着那辆van车,一次又一次的start engine,最终还是不能被启动。瞬间,我好想过去帮那车主推车。问过了二姐和妹妹 的同意后,我们便决定上前去给与援助。我问那车主是否需要推车,他尴尬的说了句:“bolehkah?”在毫无顾虑之下,我们三姐妹也就开始推车了。

推着推着,车子终于启动了!那车主感激地向我们招手致谢。任务完毕,我们便迈向头发店走去。在我们回头的那一刻,我们看见很多人都在旁观。他们都看到了刚才的经过。从他们的眼神里,我感受到了满满的成就感。哇,原来帮助别人真的可以那么的快乐!我还是第一次真正领悟到这个道理。

现在这个年代,很多人都说:“好人没好报”。很多人就借着社会人士的同情心来做些犯法的行为,就因这样,会路见不平,拔刀相助的人也就越来越少了。没有人再愿意去主动帮助别人,怕惹祸上身,招来飞来横祸。不管如何,我始终相信,这世界上,还是有好心人士的存在。只要我们在有能力的时候,伸出援手,给予别人适当的帮助,我想。。。别人也会在我们有困难的时候给与我们帮助的。

Friendship Forever 无可取代。友谊

Frienship Forever...无可取代的友谊

这是我的第一个作品

感觉真的很好 很有成就感

虽然仅有短短的几秒钟

但花了我几个小时的睡眠时间来完成

这是我在Matriculation的回忆

那时tracy生病了 一个人在宿舍 没人照顾

我和佩芬便到她那里看看

喂她吃药 陪她聊天

我们闲着没事做 拿起了手机开始玩自拍

因此 三个无聊妞也就这样拍下了这些充满回忆的照片

为了让照片更为精彩 我就把它做成了这个video

Friendship Forever就是这样而来的。。。

无聊

无聊。。。我就上上网
无聊。。。我就做做家务
无聊。。。我就听听歌
无聊。。。我就在家废
无聊。。。我甚至可以睡十四个小时!

为做不完的功课烦恼时,我希望我可以无聊得看看戏
为读不完的书困扰时,我希望我可以无聊得睡睡觉
为漫长的学期难捱时,我希望我可以无聊得放放假

如今,我无聊得希望有功课做
我无聊得希望有书读
我甚至无聊得希望没有假期
至少。。。我不会为了找工作而烦恼